You Are Light.
You were just yourself and that was more than enough.
You were so kind, and without deserving it, you still give that kindness to me.
When I let you see those Dark and Twisted Things that I use to chase away the Light, you kept on shining. Never dim. Never ashamed. Never judging.
You tried to give me understanding and even tasted my Darkness. You did it as if I was natural and normal. You called my bluff without even knowing my tells.
Your innocence made the Darkness turn inward. It no longer kept others at bay, I felt it now. It distanced me from myself. I know now it is wrong. I knew shame.
All too late to draw you to me. I wasn’t good enough for you even if you didn’t see that. I’m still not, but I am changing. Yet, you didn’t try to change me for yourself.
In our brief moments, your honesty and naked existence saved me. You’ll never fully get it, but that is what gives you such Grace.
Too many do not see you, I haven’t even seen it all, but I know it is there. You are more than letters. You are Light and I am waiting for my eyes to adjust.
The word shame stuck out to me. It seemed to have strong emotion, while reading the poem the word shame became more meaningless because the shame shifted to guilt. When you mentioned the nakedness to me that meant vulnerablility and your lack of having control by being blinded.
ReplyDeleteOk, there is one person I talk to on Facebook who reads my status at least. Thank you so much RP! This is what she said on there:
ReplyDeleteIt is beautiful. I especially love "You tried to give me understanding and even tasted my Darkness. You did it as if I was natural and normal. You called my bluff without even knowing my tells." It is obvious that this was came from a very vulnerable part of you. Well done!
Another FB comment:
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Jay that is one of the most powerful pieces I've read. It literally brought tears to my eyes. Your insight, your ability to put these feelings into the written word and have us feel them the way we do is truly a gift. Raw, real and powerful.
Wow,I know it isn't refering to me, but who is the special person?
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